Somewhere to talk about my son's life and death inside me, our life without him, and our new life as we are expecting his brother.
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Small rays of hope
So far I haven't thrown up since leaving the hospital. I've kept down a bit of solid food and am no longer feeling about to die. I'm a long way from well but seem to be mending a little. Hoping this trend continues.
Isaac was only with us for 24 weeks, but he changed everything. We are still discovering the incredible lessons this special little boy had to teach us. Sadly, we lost a second time at only five weeks. Our second son was born October 29, 2010 with no signs of the defect that took his brother.
Living life when I'm not just surviving it. Smiling while I'm crying. Laughing, always. I'm 33 and married to the most wonderful man I could ever hope for. I have a genetic disorder called Ectrodactyly, but I show no symptoms. Our first son, however, was severely affected. When I'm not writing, I'm slinging coffee, making fun of movies and sometimes hiking. Lately I'm also missing sleep and compulsively checking that my newborn son is breathing while he sleeps.
YAY. Glad something is working.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad they found something that works. I hope you feel 100% better soon.
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